February 27, 2008


The student promotions committee decided they are recommending dismissal for me. "We're sorry." Yeah right.

I have until 11am tomorrow to come up with enough convincing material to appeal the decision to the executive faculty board.

so many feelings, like colors of light, mixing to produce a white numbness.
trying to garner enough practicality, strength, wisdom, patience, charm on this grey day to come up with something that will help. trying to suppress the feelings of delusion, failure, defeat, bleakness, rage, disgust, anger...they don't help.

At least kitties still purr on my lap.

1 comment:

woo said...

My mouth is agape as I read this!!!......I can only imagine the numbness that you are feeling. I am sitting quietly holding space for your sweet spirit.